Along with rest, how much sleep are you getting. I kept up a similar pace for about 2 years before life commitments required scaling back. When I felt as you are describing I was not getting enough sleep.

Health reasons is my understanding. Belle is hitting her stride though.

Let’s talk about foreign policy games and classic games…

You are not your job, you’re not how much money you have in the bank. You are not the car you drive. You’re not the contents of your wallet. You are not your fucking khakis. You are all singing, all dancing crap of the world.

But seriously… it sounds like you were letting the outside world define you. Maybe use the silence to try to define yourself from the inside out?

What do you want to fill the silence?

Image depicting a police officer as a capitalist’s attack dog

Edit: typo

Murder is the unlawful killing of another human without justification or valid excuse committed with the necessary intention as defined by the law in a specific jurisdiction.

Justification is a defense in a criminal case, by which a defendant who committed the acts asserts that because what they did meets certain legal standards, they are not criminally culpable for the acts which would otherwise be criminal.

NYS Penal Law SECTION 35.15 Justification; use of physical force in defense of a person

Whether or not he is a murderer depends on whether the DA can meet their burden of proving he committed the acts necessary to satisfy the elements of NYS definition of whatever degree of murder the Grand Jury indicts (if that happens) AND he is not able to establish the affirmative defense of justification.

None of these determinations have been made yet.

I gotta ask, are you a time traveler or a boot licker?