before i cracked my egg i tried a few times to gain some confidence through weight lifting. i had some success but the further i got into it the less motivated i became, which i now know was my gender dysphoria getting worse as i became more traditionally masculine. realizing i was trans and starting transitioning a part of me hoped my muscles would just go away, but another part of me hoped they wouldnt because of all the time i put into building them and how much i liked being strong. they definitely made my dysphoria worse in the beginning because i felt like my pecs completely overshadowed my new breast growth, which i wanted to be more prominent.

well its been almost a year and they havent gone away nearly as much as i would have liked, but im becoming more ok with that. ive been climbing a lot more recently, and doing some specific lifts for climbing which ive actually improved on compared to before i started hormones. i think a part of me thought i wouldnt be able to get any stronger than i was on testosterone, at least not without a ton of effort, so i thought my muscles just gave me away as not a real woman. realizing i could keep them and even improve them without testosterone made them feel more feminine somehow.

its nice to reclaim part of my body i thought could never be feminine, at least a little bit.

  • rbn@sopuli.xyzEnglish
    24·
    10 days ago

    Nice! Who says a woman can’t or shouldn’t have muscles? My girlfriend also is more jacked than me (cis couple) and I see no problem with that. :)

  • subignition@fedia.io
    9·
    9 days ago

    My mother (who is cis) was a landscaper for most of her career, and the fact that she was more jacked than anyone else in the family because of it was always a genuine point of pride. It didn’t stop her from looking good in a dress either (although occasions she felt like fully dressing up for were few and far between.)

    My point being, even if your muscles were to stay looking the way they are in this picture, I think that’s perfectly okay. Strength is absolutely not exclusive to any gender, and having muscle definition doesn’t make you less of a woman. But for the record, I do think your muscles will become less prominent with time. Give it five years. If you are less than a year into your transition now, that’s hardly any time at all (even though I am sure there are so many other ways where it is also, equally validly, feeling like a really long time!)

  • Berengaria_of_Navarre@lemmy.worldEnglish
    8·
    9 days ago

    To be fair the first characters I ever consciously wanted to be like were Sarah Connor from terminator 2 and Ellen Ripley from alien, so I’m ok with being a bit more muscular.

  • brookedSmile@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    5·
    9 days ago

    Muscular girls are so hot ngl 😍😍

    Like yes pleassssse be able to easily pick me up omg love that shit 🥰

    Im glad the confidence is coming through for you! Thats so great, love ya sis❤️