I mentioned I have 12 days up in the clan chat on a game, 3 people with over 5 years up congratulated and added me. love our little communities.

why is it so cold in aus, almost at the point where I wouldn’t mind a revolting red to stay warm. ofc I’m not doing that, red wine drunk is my least favourite flavour of self destruction. 10 days.

ayoo 1 week, it’s been rough, the kindling is very real, I blackout almost immediately and the insanity wants to pull me back into the spiral. so it’s just not worth it for me. certainly no fun.

day 6. crazy were already a quarter of the way through this century.

I see my doc tomorrow too. I might try naltrexone and or acamprosate again. no antabuse, wew yuck. sleep is always going to be an issue for me, it’s so hit or miss. all or nothing, black or white no in between :D

hey team, what did you to for your sobriety today? I slept all day :D lots of love to anyone still suffering

yeah the phantom hangover, wait a sec, I’ve still got X amount of days !

yes the first steps always the hardest. just gotta do it and the next ones are ok. I’ll msg you my whatsapp/telegram we can check on each other if u want, I think it’s great to have homies with similar issues to check on, keeps me in check above the neck.

that’s almost a bottle my friend, 6 beers ish? not judging I usually drink a shitload more than that. wine is v potent. glad you’re back with us, have u talked to your wife about trying to quit or cut back? what’s the plan LF

the dreams can be devastating. usually mine I’ll open the fridge, see 1 beer and drink it without hesitation, then I wake up and think, shit I had a beer! panic for a bit then realise there’s no beer in the house :D

good on you for keeping busy, something I’ve learned that helps me stay sober is just be occupied, get in the zone. working with other alcoholics to stay sober helps me stay sober fr. big time. going good hope you’re well :)

3x24hrs and some change. a friend told me it only took him 11 days to pee clean from weed, lot more fun to think about that than 3 months, til I can be properly medicated for adhd, future is bright.

2 days down. jumped on a online meeting for the first time in a few months. if you’re interested google 247 AA meetings zoom and go to flying sober. I bounce between those rooms, they’ve helped me out of some jams and is nice to not be alone

first week sucks, hope it’s the last time we go through this. I had 108 days up, my best yet. take care my friend hope to see u tomorrow

24hrs. still feeling rotten. ambition and motivation to un ruin my life all time high tho

the rotten hangover. deep regret and shame, zero memories after the 2nd bottle. day zero.

thanks I’ll check them out now. I feel like it was going to happen, I was sitting there drinking feeling the buzz beginning but I went straight to blackout, I don’t remember anything from about halfway through the 2nd bottle of wine. lying in the dark all day feeling rotten, certainly not drinking today

i drank yesterday. wasn’t craving, just had access to enough for 1 day and thought, fuck it. 108 days vanish. day zero.

22.02.25, 333am I came to in a hospital bed under constant surveillance, no smokes phone or wallet, I had crashed my 2nd car into a barrier, nobody else involved. 107 days ago now. some of us just have to find out the hard way.

106 not today

drinking sucks. it’s snowing in aussie! not cold enough to collect on the ground but v pretty

hey rq, lots of great answers already valuable input team. I can really relate to everything you described, that was me and my relationship with alcohol. people don’t want to hear this, but I worked the 12 steps, and they heckin work. a very thorough step 4, fearless and searching and a humble step 7, asking for the mental obsession to be taken away from me. I got my lightning bolt moment and I haven’t thought about a drink in 100+ days except when something horrible happens. it’ll always call my name, whisper sweet nothings in my ear, tell me I’m not an alcoholic, but I’m just a little smarter than the disease now, I can work around that lil voice cause it just spits out dumb ideas. I drank for pstd nightmares and fast forward to sleep, only until I went through every single resentment, harm caused, fears, sex conduct etc could I see the big picture cause it was all there on paper, red hot could land me in gaol, but thats what I was running from. I didn’t understand the term dry drunk until recently. msg me any time to swap numbers.