Hey, I don’t normally comment on stuff but I do read your posts a lot! I used to deal with some pretty heavy depression, can’t really just say to you that it gets better because there are good days and bad days. But exercise helps, changing to a new environment helps (new job or new gym or new meetup group), and just honestly being less harsh on yourself. Then you can try to connect again when you’re in a better headspace.

Btw, if it’s your year in zodiac, we call it 犯太歲 and it’s generally supposed to be a difficult year for you, so make the best decisions you can and wishing you (and all Horse people) the best~