hmm it normal now

i think lurasidone(antipsych) messing up that why i going soon to stop taking this shit

i want nixos mobile…
but i have oneplus 9rt with snapdragon 888

idk im become silly like a child keyboard is custom on lubed gateron smoothies the black thing with stickers on dead zones is graphic tablet which i use sometimes to draw or just as mouse computer is mac m1 pro with NixOS installed i think should be better to post on c/unixsocks@lemmy.blahaj.zone but i dont have thigh highs…

its about setup overall

true, boykisser really describes me

also i look up at photos pre-puberty puberty start

my skull isnt changed at all

even think im look better now than boy pre puberty

only diffrence i see now that i weight gained and grow up a little bit

so i really avoided male puberty coool, if i didnt get estro one year ago i think i ended with $uic*de because i was VERY DYSPHORIC in deep depression, and happy now (ignore brainworms im really happy)

that makes me a less dysphoric
why somedays no dysphoria some days have dysphoria
but is not estrogen levels because at high levels i feel same lol

ah no, stop i know: i was bumped with antipsychotics 2 years ago because one psych think im schizo(hopefully others think im ok) then got psychosis and motor disorders on them and other psych prescribed latuda so i still cant found time to tape it (im at min dose), think this drug mess up my dopamine now

true, thank you

also if i somehow gain money for ffs in future which bones are clocky and i need to shave

yea my voice is naturally girly
testosterone are near zero stable for 1yr
estradiol - sometimes is waaay too high, ~200pg now, last bloodtest said 469 pg and i lowered back (should be 150+ pg, even 120 pg at lowest give me strong T suppression 0.64 nmol)

dont ask me why i cut hair but short also okay for now
i want to grow out to chest and colour to idk what color

on reddit ive never got detailed answer imstead i will got depressing “you re valid” “4tranner” (they think are only 4tran dysphoric about every mm l)

also which glasses will look good and feminine on me?

oaoaoa meowrrr, thank you :3

i think u are also pass and super cute :3

some other, also cool i doesnt have adam apple also as full body - i definitly pass ~162 cm and overall body is ok also i never grew facial hair(even no body hair at all) (how hard it was been to get hrt at 15 and convert transphobic mom to normal)

local online store

also u so cute)

P.S. Could I send a picture of myself in DMs and ask the same thing?

yes

OMG she literally 1:1 like me

true

thank you!!

HOW TO GET RID OF BRAINWORMS??? okay im started working with good psychotherapist so patience

my biggest brainworm is dating 3 years ago when i was very dysphoric egg craking and music teacher said BOYS VOICE BREAKS AT PUBERTY GROWS THROAT , VOICE CORDS AND GROOWS (!)JAW(!)

after that im dysphoric about my jaw at some ANGLES that its grow on testoshitrone but on photos its seems like ± SAME than PRE puberty

so is 110℅ brain worm from trauma