Working out, eating healthier, regular bedtime/sleep, reading a good book and less screen time help. Dialing down alcohol, caffeine and weed. Watching a few intro to cognitive behavioral therapy videos helps too. You’re probably ruminating. Developing the correct language to name your cognitive distortions, and being able to understand that just because you feel an emotion doesn’t mean that’s how things really happened helps.

That being said it sounds like you’re going through some rough stuff. Hang in there.

Isn’t this why DEI needs to be pulled back though?

People of color and women do get their status on their own but the policy of DEI implies that they got additional assistance even if they didn’t. This policy robs them of their achievements and it generates as much resentment towards protected groups as it provides protection. You can’t just tell the people not to feel resentment, or you’ll get republicans in office forever. We should start advocating for class based workplace assistance rather than dividing ourselves up by race and sex. You’ll help out basically the same people, but you’ll get class solidarity.