

Thanks, it was just a relationship that was only going one way. It sucks, but it is what it is, at least there’s no more hurt coming in.
I have a lot of issues with recall and memory, I think that has a lot to do with stress. Therapy can be stressful, but it’s kinda like going to the gym and exposing myself to these feelings so I’m getting better with them.
I believe two things: we weren’t put here for any reason, and it’s up to us to create meaning in our own lives.
Personally I’ve enjoyed reading Marcus Aurelius’s Meditations. Stoicism resonates with me; I think the ideas are worth exposing yourself to (try and get a book with translations and explanations, it can be dry otherwise).
You clearly don’t like your job, what can you do about that? Can hobbies help fill the hole elsewhere? Could you be spending more time with the important poeple in your life? Is it possible to switch companies, or try other jobs?
I went back to a big safe corporate job a couple years ago and my life was a slough and I was miserable. I’ve been back at a smaller company for a bit and it’s much more enjoyable, which has made a huge difference in my life.