Why was I put here and cursed to live this life of loneliness?
I believe two things: we weren’t put here for any reason, and it’s up to us to create meaning in our own lives.
Personally I’ve enjoyed reading Marcus Aurelius’s Meditations. Stoicism resonates with me; I think the ideas are worth exposing yourself to (try and get a book with translations and explanations, it can be dry otherwise).
You clearly don’t like your job, what can you do about that? Can hobbies help fill the hole elsewhere? Could you be spending more time with the important poeple in your life? Is it possible to switch companies, or try other jobs?
I went back to a big safe corporate job a couple years ago and my life was a slough and I was miserable. I’ve been back at a smaller company for a bit and it’s much more enjoyable, which has made a huge difference in my life.
Canada strongly needs this, and to expand our own cloud data centres.
It is going to be very difficult for businesses to move off US tech when everything is running on AWS and GC.
I would support us integrating with the EU for this. France and Germany’s programs are already having great looking open source tools getting released. I would love to be a part of that too.