so who is playin deltarune? i finished it through chapter 4 and now i’m gonna get both types of run in the can so i can pretend i’m not back to waiting a year for the next part. how bout those new secret bosses? how bout that damn

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roaring knight?

it’s nice to have parts of this game be as hard as sands undertale.

also, susie is my favorite, she’s precious, everyone drop your favorite susie moments in the comments

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  • thirstyskyline [she/her, ae/aer]@hexbear.netEnglish
    7·
    20 days ago

    I want to get on HRT eventually I hope once I move out, but will see, I’m like still visibly gender trangressive and I get shit for that lol but I really would want HRT probably I think

    sex, hrt

    I hope HRT just fucks up my libido cause I just hate the T libido, although this is probably me selfhating than dysphoric, dunno, always disliked it and found it “disgusting” and forceful on my partner, but I probably shouldnt view HRT as a means to this. I do find my current body repulsive but I dont know if the self hate stems from dysphoria or the dysphoria comes from self hate lmao

    I had a discussion a bit ago with my partner about this and she kinda told me she felt objectified by me in certain instances as I’m just overwhelming with T libido and I’m trying not to self hate about it but… Dunno, sucks.

    I want to qualitatively achieve a better point in life but I dont feel like “deserving of it” at all and idk brain pep talk is bad, as usual

    Sapping my energy by debating myself about selfhate moment

    Thank you for the welcome though ^^ i talk a lot sorry lol

    • WalrusDragonOnABike [they/them]@reddthat.com
      4·
      20 days ago

      Welcome!

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      but I probably shouldnt view HRT as a means to this. As someone who is aroace and saw HRT partially as a means to that, after starting spiro (even with a lot dose of E that probably hadn’t done anything yet), I decided that I didn’t want to go back to T-libido - I still wasn’t sure how much of the effects of E I wanted at the time. I similarly felt like it was a bad reason to try HRT (instead of just trying other medicines that are more directly aimed at suppressing libido), but I think its a perfectly fine reason. I think if you think HRT is a good solution to your libido, its probably a sign that its actually not *just *about your libido - I personally had a hard time just consciously guessing what I would or would not like and realized I just needed to jump in to test the waters.

    • sodium_nitride [she/her, any]@hexbear.netEnglish
      3·
      20 days ago

      cause I just hate the T libido

      When I went on hrt and lost my libido, it was really nice at first. But in my experience, I didn’t gain any “E libido” after (idk if that’s even a thing). It has made things difficult for me. And I don’t even have a partner that I need to attend. I just feel frustrated.

      I’m not trying to discourage you. I wouldn’t stop doing HRT no matter the cost. But maybe you should just know what the possible range of experiences is.

          • thirstyskyline [she/her, ae/aer]@hexbear.netEnglish
            4·
            20 days ago

            For me even without E temp always played a factor but dunno

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            i dont like my libido cause i perceieve it as “manly” and imposing especially on my girlfriend as she is wayy on the low libido side (in her case id say its stress right now), and just makes me feel shitty like a demanding piece of shit