If things get too weird this week i’m going to fuck off to another part of the world and start a new life. My language skills are actuslly getting pretty decent and more possible destinations open up.
So recently i realised everyone around me just lies, making up elaborate stories. I used to feel guilty when i lied so easily and now i realise it was taught to me by everyone i grew up with.
There is no place for me in their constructed narrative. Not with my family who raised me, nor with friends. Not with the wider commumity I grew up in.
Ironically, most people want to move away and explore the world. I would have been happy to stay put, i love everything about where i grew up. But i found out how deep the lies run.
That sounds less “weird” and more “bout of depression”.
How elaborate are we talking?
Make sure you don’t take your lying culture with you wherever you go. Good luck!
That sounds horrible. Glad you’re getting out.
how old are you?
welcome to growing up. yeah, everyone lies. and if you don’t lie, everyone will hate you.
reality is too complex and harsh for the average person to deal with, so we lie to simplify everything. to each other, to ourselves.
