No, not from my bf this time
It’s my boobs. They hurt. A lot. Or, at least my left one does. And I had another tiny drop of milky liquid come out. If it was a large amount, I’d be worried that cypro finally gave me a prolactinoma, but since it’s just a drop, it’s probably just normal development.

My left one is definitely ahead. It started leaking a month before my right. It’s a race, really 😂. They’re cousins, not twins :3
My bf confirmed my left was slightly bigger and said it was more “boob-shaped”, which was kinda mean, but he’s right. They’ll even out tho, I’m not even a year in yet.

Also, the cold, omg the fucking cold 😭. As my dad always says, I’m freezing my tits off. Literally, this time 😂. Surprisingly painful, the combination of cold weather and having boobs. Absolutely, without a doubt worth it tho.

I love having boobs :3
Honestly, I’m such a girl, fuck what anyone says. Growing my boobs, definitely slowly getting a bigger butt, getting really soft and squishy everywhere, especially my thighs, covered in soft skin and girl smell…
And my face is starting to get cute, it really is 😭. I can see it, very slowly changing and the mirror might not be my mortal enemy anymore 😂
I’m getting there. I love E ❤️

I love being a girl 🩷
Nya~ :3

  • Vivian@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    1·
    35 minutes ago

    You are such a girl and I’m happy you’re feeling more certain about that <3

    hard agree that your face is cute :)

    meowmmmrrprrrrrrr :3

  • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
    4·
    5 hours ago

    My bf is making fun of me again 😭
    We were taking about brain tumors from cypro and he went like:
    “Ah yes, transforming into a woman, half your brain gone”
    And I’m just like:
    “I love you, but also like…screw youu” 😭😭😭

    He meant it as a joke, not at all seriously. It’s sad and it sucks, but misogynistic jokes are very common in my country, along with racist, homophobic and xenophobic ones…fuck this country fr

    My bf doesn’t mean it, but most men here do and that pisses me off more than it should. This country and the people are so old-fashioned, so conservative and extremely heterocisnormartive. I hate it here, I wanna go to the Netherlands or Finland or someplace nice and progressive 😭

  • applebusch (she/her)@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    9·
    6 hours ago

    oooh yeah the sort of cloudy whitish liquid that comes out. i hear its a normal thing early in boob growth but that it stops eventually. im told ive got it too, and that its kind of yummy :3

    • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      6·
      6 hours ago

      I’ve had that intrusive thought…
      “TASTE IT”
      But I’ve successfully resisted, for now 😂
      I’ll give it a try next time :3

      • Malica@lemmy.zipEnglish
        4·
        5 hours ago

        It’s breast milk isn’t it? I’ve tried it before, it’s sweet lol.

      • MapleFawn@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        4·
        5 hours ago

        Please don’t give in 🫣 I am not taking any hormones yet (thanks to having 3+ years of waiting in a queue left to do……….), but I am still quite confused about if that liquid is anything good, concerning or nothing worry about.

        • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
          4·
          5 hours ago

          3+ years?! Holy shit girl…
          You’ve probably been told this before, but would you like to DIY? I can kinda sorta help, I think. No one should be waiting 3 years for 'mones tho. That’s just cruel…

          Liquid is fine, as long as it’s a small amount. I think it’s the milk ducts opening up. When it’s a large amount tho (actual lactation), it means your prolactin is high, and that could be a big problem.
          One of the causes of high prolactin is a prolactinoma, a bening tumor that produces too much prolactin. Cyproterone can cause it

          • MapleFawn@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
            3·
            4 hours ago

            I understand some of the words you used 🥹 but I did understand that the dosage makes the poison. Small amount okay, lots bad. I didn’t know we had any sort of equipment in our pre boobies.

            I am personally considering DIY but I know my wife is even more cautious than I am in that regards. I am a bit of a chicken if you want so. If you want you could enlighten me because I have no idea how to go about it. I have looked at some things online but I don’t know if the stuff can be trusted. Either here or in the PM’s is fine for me. I am supposed to be sleeping right now so I might take a bit to replay (assuming I fall asleep anytime soon)

            • TRAHR@quokk.auEnglish
              4·
              4 hours ago

              Hundreds and thousands of us do or have done DIY. It sounds so much scarier than it is. If you ever want to talk about it you can message me as well, I’m happy to help

            • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
              3·
              4 hours ago

              I didn’t know we had any sort of equipment in our pre boobies

              Sorry, I don’t think I quite follow…

              We can talk about DIY anytime. I don’t know ad much as someone actually on DIY, but I’ll try my best. Probably DMs, Matrix would be even better. I’ll tell you all I know.

              NSFW, TMI

              Definitely tomorrow tho, you’re supposed to be going to sleep and I’m supposed to be having sex right now 😭

              Sleep well ♥️

    • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      2·
      4 hours ago

      Yes it is!
      But also scratching the nipples very lightly feels amazing, at least for me! And as a bonus, you’re scratching an itch, so…profit? 😆

  • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
    7·
    6 hours ago

    I haven’t even been paying attention to the “getting squishy” part, omg. I am squishy, my bf is totally right! 😂
    Still need more fat tho