Ive been thinking about it fir a while, but i think i really want it. It feels strange still being so early on. Ive inly started hrt 8 months ago, but i really want it. And i want ffs. Its like the floodgates broke open and i want as much as i can get.
I had it done in 2019. Very happy I did. I’ve also been on HRT for over a decade. AMA
Non-trans here.
Do you remember how you felt before HRT, starting taking HRT and now, physically (because emotionally, it must be liberating I assume)?
It is fascinating to me that we can modify the human body to that extent, and hormones play a huge role on how we physically and emotionally we feel.
Thank you for your time.
I haven’t had FFS or GRS yet, but I’ve been on hormones for a while.
before HRT I was pretty depressed, the culprit was the fact that no matter what I did my body got worse (more masculine). For example: I hated shaving because I had to, I was horrified that shaving might make my beard grow faster (it doesn’t but it does make it more visible), so for years I would pluck it out in the hopes that it would slow down and stop spreading but it kept creeping up to other areas of my face. I couldn’t do anything .
That wasn’t the only thing, my face, my hairline, my body, my voice, everything was always getting worse.
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I genuinely thought about committing suicide.
At one point it genuinely got really bad and I decided that I would stop living as others expected me to, that day I started transitioning, I came out to my parents about two months later and 3.5 months after that I started HRT.
Starting HRT is really magical the first day you’re super excited but nothing really happens for like 48h, then if the treatment is correct (correct dosage) you start to feel pretty tired for a week or two, this is because testosterone kinda acts like caffeine in a way and gives you a lot of energy, you get used to it fast though and then the changes start coming in. More importantly though, you know for sure at that point that things aren’t getting any worse and that probably is the most HRT will do for your mental health.
Mentally the first month was a roller-coaster going from “Yipee i got HRT!!! 🎉” to “is this thing even working?☹️” (it is working it’s just slow, manage your expectations!), estradiol kicks in and suddenly you feel things it’s strange but stuff feels more vibrant, music(for me) became insanely good one day and I’ve been listening to so much music since, it’s crazy. That could 100% be because I was less depressed but I have a feeling it’s not only that.
Then the physical changes start, you actually don’t notice them, but I just took pictures every month an yeah things are definitely changing so that feels really good! It does feel unreal, like I have boobs now that’s the coolest shit ever!!! you get used to your body but things like hips and breasts still amaze me when I see them.
I’m not fully where I want to be but I actually kinda like my body and I would have told you that was impossible a few years back.
I didn’t think I wanted it before I started transition. It took a few months for it to fully sink it that it was a thing I could do and that it would make me happier. I also maybe felt a bit like I didn’t deserve it. I wasn’t able to get it for a long time due to medical gatekeeping, but I’m very happy I was eventually able to get it nonetheless.
I am also struggling with feeling like I deserve it. I still can’t connect with whether it would make me happier per se, but having a scrotum is pretty gross - so I guess I feel more dysphoria as a motivation than gender euphoria.
Oh hey, yours was fairly recent; I remember commenting on your posts! How goes/went recovery?Whoops, wrong username, my bad. Mistook you for someone else who made some posts around june-ishI had mine in April of last year. Not my post, but I’m doing great :)
I’ve progressively come to the realisation that I do indeed want GRS, I always wanted FFS and GRS felt less important, but as time goes on I realise that, I’m never going to have a fullfilling sex life with my current equipment…
That’s a common experience. Fortunately some of the longer wait time elements of bottom surgery like hair removal can start asap
In fact, some stuff like hair removal is actually better to start early and do long term. Cuz there’s always the chance that rapid treatments don’t get everything, but you won’t know right away until things have time to heal and start growing again. So if you do it too quickly, it’s possible that you miss follicles that can still grow hair. And when discussing bottom surgery, missed follicles are the stuff of nightmares. So start the hair removal early, let it have time to heal, and give yourself time to identify any missed follicles and return for further treatment.
