I like being touched and touching, it’s just horrible to try, or imagine trying, and then being rejected. What if I’m coming on too strong? What if they don’t want to touch right now? What if they don’t want to touch right now, or I’m actually smelly from a mild amount of sweat and they have to endure that because they don’t want to tell me off but I haven’t realized it, and now I’m subjecting them to unpleasantness that they feel obligated to endure?