Which now I thinking about it… I guess this is why Gen Z / Gen Alpha are using “brain rot” slang, they want to create a world where they feel in control, where they are the masters of.
Just like I do. I sometimes just yell English phrases as my like to create a sense of seriousness… like know how parents call your full name? My mom use Taishanese (their home village language) to call my full name instead of Cantonese (the language of the city I was born in) when she’s mad at me, and I feel like that make her feel so “in control”. So for me, I reverse it in the other direction, I just use English like “leave me alone” lol, I don’t care if my mom understood it. I feel so empowered by it lol.
I feel like writing poetry in Chinese felt a lot “poem-y” like its one syllable per word, I can make each line the same length, looks more “symmetrical”, and in Chinese, I can shorten typical 2 character words into 1 character in a poem, and that’ll still get meaning across.
But I can’t write it by hand, I have to type via Pinyin on a computer/phone.
Sometimes I wanna mix languages to represent different identities.
Cantonese = Home Life and relationship with parents and as a Cantonese person
Mandarin = Mainland China and it’s associated politics
English = United States and it’s associated politics, and the problems I faced in schools, and the racism and xenophobia, and life in general when I’m outside of home