Awww, that’s soo sweet! I need to get better at getting gifts for people.

Make sure to update us on your haul on tuesday!! :)

BRB changing my name to Aardvark.

If you’re into hot sauces, my favorite is the Yellow Bird brand Ghost pepper sauce. I’m literally addicted to it.

Great! Did you get anything good?

Been having a bit more of a difficult time compared to normal. This hormone cycle has been a doozy filled with a ton of mood swings and ebbs and flows of self confidence. I’m not sure if progesterone has screwed up my period or not, but its been weird since I added it last month. I’ve also been feeling incredibly isolated because I don’t have any close trans friends IRL to commiserate with and my I feel like I’m playing catchup with my cis friends and don’t really fit in. My only other trans friend is awful at holding a convo but we don’t really have much in common anyway. But I have a consultation for g.a.s and another electrolysis session this week so hopefully that’ll help me deal with the louder dysphorias and not feel stuck.

Oh, and I have developed a weird sense of grief for not having had a toxic past of dating bad influences in my 20’s. Thanks, Renée Rapp lol

That is really poetic, thank you so much for sharing. I’m glad that it is something positive that you’ve latched onto and hopefully you had a great time at the picnic!

Hope you had a good time!

Love those stockings!!! :)

Edit: Also, may I ask the significance of the 4 of diamonds?

Still not sure where I took the guts for that from tbh.

I get that. Some of my friends have told me how brave I am and I’m just like “I don’t really feel brave, I just got fed up”. Thank you for sharing :)

Heyyy Brooke! Good to see ya girl! It’s so interesting posting an introduction after having lurked for so long cuz I feel like I already know so many people lol I plan to be here for a while 💜

P.S. ACAB

Thanks! It’s a nickname my wife gave me based on my actual name :)

I started out with my safe ones as well. I’m really priveledged that I already had such amazing supportive friends and most of my family. Julia, I hope that you’re able to find better IRL friends or that your existing friends come around.

After 2 weeks I knew I that this was what i needed

That’s soo good to hear! I didn’t really have that realization until probably about 2-3 months. It took a while to get my hormones to the target levels since I started on tablets. My liver converts the estradiol almost entirely to estrone so my E1 levels were astronomical. My doctor moved me to patches and that point is when I was like “oh hell yeah, this is what life is supposed to feel like”. Having that feeling combined with finally seeing my testosterone levels within the cis range made me absolutely bawl because it was proof that I wasn’t, like, deluding myself or something. That this is actually what is right for me. That plus the fact that my tits started growing about 2-3 weeks in. I am on Spiro so it took a while for my T levels to bottom out.

If the only thing i got from HRT was the emotional changes, I’d still never stop taking it.

Same, girl. I am finally able to feel moved by a piece of art, or inspired and hopeful by someone else’s triumphs, or saddened by tragedy. For all the good and bad, its nice to be able to fully feel. I wouldn’t want to trade it for anything.

Thank you so much, Nissa! I’m happy to be here and more active in the community :)

I read through your introduction post from a few months ago and just wanted to say that a lot of similar events have happened to me as I grew up. I also can remember several episodes of euphoria and confusing crushes and “cross dressing” for halloween as a joke. I love the sense of self validity you seem to have and I’m glad that you’ve found what brings you joy! 💜

Nice to meet you, Julia :) I hope you like it here as much as I have!

I feel like the outlier here, the moment I cracked I pushed for everything transition as fast as I could, still do.

So I consider my egg cracking a different not event from starting to transition.This was me once I started coming out. I speed ran my social transition and just hopscotched from one milestone to another. Its like I spent so much time figuring out what I wanted from transitioning that once I made the decision I was just like “okay, let’s go”.

Glad to see you and thanks for the hug 🫂 :) I’m happy you’re doing great, that’s always so wonderful to hear about! I’m finally getting to the other side of a particularly difficult period so I’m doing pretty good today.

Ooof girl same. I think I’m finally through it though. My hormonal cycles since adding progesterone have been kinda intense. I hope you start to feel better soon too! One of my friends got be a blahaj for Christmas and she’s been subjected to many cuddle and cry sessions.

Hello!!! 💜

Absolute mood. I consider myself unapologetically trans. Its hard to exemplify that a lot of times but it feels so good when I can.