For me the most frightening aspect of drugs is not being my true self and not being 100% in control. I see it all the times when friends do them. While it is funny for me to spend time with them in that state, I would never want to be in that state myself. I do imitate drunkness and lower inhibitions to fit into the environment. Nobody takes any issue with me being sober then.
I guess if I wanted (and had the skills), I could see a way to turn it into either. 😅
But alas I would rather not. Maybe in 20 years or something.
I add the titles after I am done writing the initial entry usually.
Thanks for sharing too!
For me it is not about documenting my life at all. It is about processing very strong emotions (negative, positive, neutral?) that I can’t move on from.
Here are all entries in my diary:
2025-07 The Pornhub Hoody
2025-01 Debating K
2024-10 The criteria
2024-10 No Encounter
2024-10 A Pawn in their game
2024-08 What a Wash
2024-03 S The Aftermath
2021-06 T admiration
Note the names are abbreviated with just a letter in the entry itself too. In the moment it is often too hard for me to write the actual name. I have removed the exact date but I don’t think the titles are too sensitve.
I review my entries like once a year and it is still very hard to read some of them. I think remembering the past is very importnat. It also shows growth, improvement and development.
Older ones are sadly lost to time. I think it really helped me improve myself a lot.
I never force myself to write them. I write them when I feel I have to. It also keeps the number low and the impact high ideal for a yearly review.
Some have blocks of dated commentary at the end. I never edit existing writing though. Once it is written it is frozen.
I love that ability I just have to be tired enough which I usually am.
When I decide to sleep on the cold floor for example I sometimes regret that on the next day though.
Playing the piano. Not because I don’t like it. I just found it to be another thing I mostly do alone and I have more than enough hobbies where I do that already and enjoy more. Instead I picked up some hobbies to do with friends.
I think we really need a .docx.
Why not do all of the classic office file extensions?
LaTeX still surprises me sometimes but then I quickly realize.
Same with rust you gotta put docs/lang or you get a wiki or forums which are about something else.
I want to argue against that but that would take too much time.
Exactly some. We are so tight on ipv6 adresses a /48 would be ludicrous. Imagine me wanting some local networks.
This is something where ipv4 is actually better for my use. Also I have to hardcode the ipv6 prefix in so many applications and services - I dread ever getting a different prefix.
My wired carrier only gives me a /60 for ipv6 and they can’t do reverse DNS entries for ipv6. :(
At least I get an ipv6.
Wait for a 16.<BR> Take a metal straw.<BR> Punch through.<BR> Drink the goodness inside.<BR> Pro tip: If it doesn’t flow well knead it a bit.
Thanks for listening to my TED ed talk.
Often OEMs pay for windows if you buy a prebuilt or a laptop. So you might pay Microsoft indirectly.
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Are you left handed?
Oh man. I hope Dolby looses. Patents are way too long and benefit so few that I think they shouldn’t be justified/exist in society. Also some stuff should be decided in court to be essential technology and patents/claims should then be dissolved/voided.
“How much will you pay for an extra day?” The clock man asked the child.
“Not one penny,” the answer came.
“For my days are as many as my smiles.”
“How much will you pay for an extra day?” He asked when the child was grown.
“Maybe a dollar or maybe less, for I’ve plenty of days of my own.”
“How much will you pay for an extra day?” He asked when the time came to die.
“All of the pearls in all of the seas, and all of the stars in the sky.”
I like the movie and atmosphere but damn the villains are whack
I wish there were some spinoff or something similar.
100% control was not meant literally. I recognize that 100% control might be unachievable. Sleep deprivation and many other factors can also reduce “control” which is equally undesirable in my opinion. Also true self might be a little loaded but I see it that way. You are free to interpret true self differently!