To prefix this, I’d like to say that I don’t consider these nudes. I mean sure, they are pictures of my nude body, but I don’t consider them sexual. I just want to get other people’s opinions on this.

Pics here

So, there’s something truly strange about the shape of my body. Like, I have ridiculously broad shoulders, very bad posture and also (IMO) a really masculine face, but I also have…hips? I guess??

It’s like, during the development of my upper body, nature was like:
“Boy? Boy. Yess, boy. Big shoulders. Angular face.”
And then for my lower body, it was like:
“Wait a minute…she might come to accept herself as a girl someday…screw it. Girl it is.”
That’s like literally what happened 😭

My body isn’t feminine. Well, my breasts might be 😂. But the general shape I’d say is kinda androgynous. Like I have a decently slim waist, combined with my semi-hips makes a really interesting illusion. The illusion of a feminine silhouette. Sadly it’s just a good angle and arching my back really hard, lol.

In any case, my boyfriend has a pretty good view, I’d say 🤣

I guess I’m not upset. Sure, it could’ve been a lot better and more feminine, but also…I feel like it could’ve been a lot worse. Like, I could’ve been a literal brick.
Am I crazy? Does this come across as arrogant? I’m really sorry, I’ve just been wondering about this since pre-HRT times. Now I have a platform where I actually feel safe talking about stuff like this…

So umm. Feel free to comment, criticize, roast or anything else. And…thank you, I guess? I really don’t know what I’m expecting out of this. I guess I’ll see.

    • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
      3·
      1 month ago

      I’ll give it to you for free, please don’t kill anyone 😭

      Thank you tho. After reading these comments, I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t deserve it at all…

      • ChaoticNeutralCzech@feddit.orgEnglish
        2·
        1 month ago

        Maybe they meant “to have a body like you” not “to look at or touch your body”. Both are very much desirable, not gonna lie. If your boyfriend accepts you for who you are and you’re comfortable around him, as you indicated in other comments, he definitely deserves to see your body, and you deserve to have it. Make the most out of it: use clothing, hairstyle and makeup true to your self and while being able to strike a seductive pose is never a disadvantage, don’t think you need to hold it uncomfortably. Congratulations and don’t internalize mean comments/looks people IRL (rural areas and towns but occasionally even in Prague) sometimes give you. Shrug them off, confidence is half the battle of passing: women’s bodies come in all shapes and sizes, being comfortable with what you have (again, thinking you have it too good to deserve doesn’t help) will signal “that’s how I was meant to be”, which is important advice for cis women too. Your boyfriend should be able to help with confidence training, don’t be afraid to ask. But he’s a man, and so am I, so what do I know? Make sure to meet some friendly women too, it would be unreasonable to expect him to research “girl secrets” for you. There is no single “correct” way to be a woman, and a good group of friends will happily accept a femme or butch, prude or slut, all the same. Yes, your shoulders are unusually broad but clothing can be used to emphasize other parts of your body. That’s up to you though: a woman can pull off a look that intimidates Nazis too (however, in the Czech Republic, the best response to strangers making you uncomfortable is generally to make them look laughable for getting offended by however you chose to look that day).

        And it can’t be ruled out that you might be intersex. Quite a few people, cis or trans, have bodies with mixed characteristics even without HRT or surgery and live happily undiagnosed* for years or their entire lives.

        * The word has negative connotations so to be clear: It is a medical condition but not a disorder, there are rarely any negative effects.

        Edit: the “broad shoulders” were just a perspective trick. Your elevator selfie is 100% femme.

        • Miisha ♀️@lemmy.blahaj.zoneOPEnglish
          1·
          1 month ago

          Maybe they meant “to have a body like you” not "to look at or touch your body

          I got that. I actually understand English really well, I’m bilingual 😆
          Thanks for explaining tho

          Both are very much desirable, not gonna lie

          Are you sure about that? 😂
          I’d give them my body for free, I’d swap. Not that long ago, all I could think about was destroying this body. And I still have SH scars across my entire left hand…
          It was a mistake.

          a good group of friends will happily accept a femme or butch, prude or slut, all the same

          I really wish I find a good group of female friends for myself…
          I think that’s what I really need. But I’m scared cis women still see me as nothing but a threat, so I’ll probably need way more time on HRT.

          however, in the Czech Republic, the best response to strangers making you uncomfortable is generally to make them look laughable for getting offended by however you chose to look that day

          Omg that’s so true tho 😂
          That is indeed the Czech thing to do. I’ll have to try it sometime

          And it can’t be ruled out that you might be intersex.

          I really don’t think so. I wish doctors would find surprise ovaries or even a womb in my body…but I think I’m just an XY person. Sorry of that’s offensive, I don’t know how else to put it. And no, I don’t consider being intersex a disorder, never have.

          the “broad shoulders” were just a perspective trick

          Nah, you’re totally correct, they are very broad. If they weren’t tho, damn, I could’ve been a model 😆. Not really, but it’s what I like to think.

          You’ve been nothing but helpful to me in all of your comments. Thank you, kind Czech person ♥️