I made a Matrix account on chat.blahaj.zone
No idea what I’m doing yet 😂

I sent a message in the “Applications” room. Seems like a good place to start?

Oh my god, same! And I used to starve myself pre-HRT, so it was even worse!

There is some fat there now tho :p
So I’m not sitting on bone at least 😂

Discord is a piece of shit. I fucking hate Discord. If all of my friends weren’t there, I would’ve yeeted my account long ago.

I was on Reddit originally…
Then I had a moment and deleted my account. Coming back, I couldn’t post anything with a new account, it’d just get deleted by the filters. And on top of that, they started asking for my ID.
So I deleted my second account too

I do know Matrix. I tried to get my friends back in the day (we don’t talk anymore) to switch to Matrix instead of Discord. I’ll give it a try! Guess I’ll download Element again 😆

No Czech people I know of but there are dedicated “Nerd” and “IT” rooms

It’s completely fine, honestly, I even prefer it that way. Czech is nice, kinda, but everything in the language being gendered…yeah no.
I’m trying Matrix

Oh how sweet! Oh wait, what’s this? Hmmm… Perhaps I’ll give this naughty section a little read…

You knew what you were getting into 😂. I put that extra warning there for a reason.

Oh… Oh my… Oh wow. Now that’s ROUGH! No wait, THAT’S ROUGH! *blush* Ahem. Good show. Well done. *golf clap*

Rough indeed 🤭

I’ll have what she’s having!

I CANNOT recommend it enough. You really should 😊

pets the catgirl

You’re a cutie, aren’t you? :3

I didn’t realize it until I started transitioning, but self-expression is so important to good mental health.

It is! So freaking much! Expressing yourself in a way that isn’t you is actively harmful.

Thank you 💜

Nice Yuri pfp btw 😂

Aha! Town girl it is then.

Meh, I still like it 😆

Edit: Fuck Brno! (my bf is from near Brno). Fuck that place! 😂

Sorry to everyone from Brno

Maybe they meant “to have a body like you” not "to look at or touch your body

I got that. I actually understand English really well, I’m bilingual 😆
Thanks for explaining tho

Both are very much desirable, not gonna lie

Are you sure about that? 😂
I’d give them my body for free, I’d swap. Not that long ago, all I could think about was destroying this body. And I still have SH scars across my entire left hand…
It was a mistake.

a good group of friends will happily accept a femme or butch, prude or slut, all the same

I really wish I find a good group of female friends for myself…
I think that’s what I really need. But I’m scared cis women still see me as nothing but a threat, so I’ll probably need way more time on HRT.

however, in the Czech Republic, the best response to strangers making you uncomfortable is generally to make them look laughable for getting offended by however you chose to look that day

Omg that’s so true tho 😂
That is indeed the Czech thing to do. I’ll have to try it sometime

And it can’t be ruled out that you might be intersex.

I really don’t think so. I wish doctors would find surprise ovaries or even a womb in my body…but I think I’m just an XY person. Sorry of that’s offensive, I don’t know how else to put it. And no, I don’t consider being intersex a disorder, never have.

the “broad shoulders” were just a perspective trick

Nah, you’re totally correct, they are very broad. If they weren’t tho, damn, I could’ve been a model 😆. Not really, but it’s what I like to think.

You’ve been nothing but helpful to me in all of your comments. Thank you, kind Czech person ♥️

And there’s only one city in the Czech Republic

Ah. Then I guess I’m a village girl?
I mean, I did spend 17 years living a village. That’ll leave an impact 😂

I guess I’m not really living in a city then? The city was a lie?

Cause I’m not living in Prague.

I’ll check it out, thanks!

it’s not too late for them though, and I’ll make sure to support them whether they turn out to be a tomboy or trans man

You seem like a good person. I trust you to support them as best you can.

However, your look, front and back, is making anyone misgendering you look not just like an asshole but just plain stupid

You haven’t really gotten a good look at me or my body language for that matter. For that reason, I’d like to say it’s not completely black and white like that. Anyway, thank you for your kind words 🩷

I know about my shoulders. I can’t do anything to fix them other than draw attention away from them by dressing well. They’re solid bone. HRT will get rid of lots of muscle mass, but my shoulders are pure bone…
I’ve actually considered getting a clavicle reduction surgery in Vienna, but it’s expensive, risky and my German is spotty at best 😭
If I had the money tho…I’d get all of the surgeries

That’s really interesting…
I really doubt it’s my case, because unfortunately, T puberty had a “normal” effect on my body in a way I can never fix 😔

Nevertheless, thanks for the info. I think I’m just a weirdly-shaped person is all.

stop doubting yourself and listening to the idiots around us screaming about how we can’t possibly exist “but please let me hit”.

I HATE people like that with a passion. Arrogant and thinking they’re entitled to our bodies while also trying to erase our existence…

Omg this is really well written! Thanks so much for sharing

I’m so glad you got to have this experience, it sounds extremely nice! Your neighbor sounds like a great person! And she has a pretty name too 😆

I’m honestly a bit jealous. I’ve never had that happen to me, where I meet a man irl and then hit it off with him (and let him hit). I’m in a relationship and I kinda long for that experience, but it’s out of reach with my current anatomy, but that’s TMI.

Hoping I get to experience something similar in the future, because this sounds hot, steamy, romantic and all of the things I like. I hope 20 isn’t too late.

AMM, if you’re out there reading this…I miss you.

🥹
This part is making me cry, not even joking. I hope you two beautiful souls find your ways together one day. It seems to me that you’re the right peple for each other.

Holy crap, thank you so much for sharing that with me. That’s genuinely amazing! Happy for both of you! Wishing you the best, hope you meet her again soon ❤️

Thanks Cily 💜

You go queen! So happy for you Cily

Thank you!

Nyaa :3

(I’m not very well-versed in catgirl talk, despite my bf telling me I’m a kitten all the time 😭)

Thank you for the kind words 🩷

I kinda have something like a community irl…a Discord server of trans people like me, all from my country and a neighboring one. I’m planning to attend one of the meetups soon.

Not clumsy at all. Thank you, kind stranger

Obligatory “oh yes, Míša, one of the few classic androgynous names”

Yeah, the short-form of my name, Míša, works for both genders. But you know that, you speak the language 😆

Call me stupid, but I still consider it a feminine name. And if someone calls me that and then uses the wrong pronouns…it gives me the ick beyond belief. My grandma does that unfortunately 😔

It’s my fault really, for choosing a 4 syllable name 😭. But I’m actually really happy with it 😄

Yes. I got them as a gift from our bf for our anniversary, if you mean having the piercings.

If you mean having to remove them…it’s definitely a bad idea to keep them on E. Your breasts are growing, the tissue is changing…it’s not good to have a barbell through your nipples at that time 😆

I’ve heard that it’s recommended to wait at least year or two years after starting HRT before getting them pierced again.

I will NOT be doing that, since the first time I almost fainted because of the pain and I literally cannot imagine going through that with nipples as sensitive as these…

Hey, how rude! I’m not that old yet 😭

I’ll take that as a compliment tho. Nobody has ever said anything like that to me before 😆