I’m sorry I’m so sad and I don’t have any friend to whom I can come out and I HATE SEEING MYSELF IN REFLECTIONS 😭😭😭

  • secret300@lemmy.sdf.orgEnglish
    4·
    14 hours ago

    Sure we can be friends. I’m not as chronically online as I used to be but we can still play Minecraft together if you want

  • AnarchistArtificer@slrpnk.netEnglish
    8·
    17 hours ago

    I don’t expect that this will be particularly reassuring, but I’m a cis woman who heavily relates to many of the bad feels you describe wrt your self image: I often feel like I’m crushed by the pressure of gendered expectations, and that I am failing at being a woman. Of course, I know the sensible thing would be to break free of the misogynistic standards that I will never fit neatly into, and to present in a way that’s most authentic to who I feel I am. Alas, doing that is harder than it sounds, because any self image I may try to build for myself will be inevitably tainted by my knowledge of how the world sees me.

    Some days I feel better about myself, but there are many more where I am reminded of how internalised misogyny and queerphobia I need to unpack. Part of why I love being in community with trans folk (especially trans women) is that I feel more free to explore how I want to present myself to the world, rather than feeling like I’m failing at being a woman.

    Your relationship with your body will be quite different than my own, but in one of your comments on this post, you acknowledged that you probably don’t look as bad as you feel (but you still feel bad tho). That was really relatable to me, and why I wrote this comment. I hope the solidarity helps somewhat.

  • girlthing@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    10·
    1 day ago

    Hi Una! I’m also a sad trans girl stuck in a transphobic environment, just fighting what feels like a losing battle to keep myself going somehow until I can hopefully see a future for myself one day.

    With that unsolicited trauma dump out of the way - I don’t log in that often, but know that I’ll be rooting for you <3

    • UnaOPEnglish
      5·
      1 day ago

      I love you! 🩷🩷🩷 You are beautiful girl 🩷🫂🫂🫂

    • UnaOPEnglish
      12·
      1 day ago

      Thanks 🩷🩷🫂

    • UnaOPEnglish
      27·
      2 days ago

      Thanks, I hate dysphoria and it’s impossible to concentrate on studying I wish I was born girl with beautiful vagina and not this stupid worm

  • yoriaiko@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    13·
    1 day ago

    Hi Una! Aye, even if law may not be bad, minds of societies changes much slower.

    That may feel boring, You probably heard that already, but if You feel unsafe - keep Your safety as top prio, keep dreaming, delay things if needed, but stay safe, to bloom other day (if not yet today).

    Then, do more research, maybe some peoples around You are not transphobic, but only uneducated? Maybe there is some sanctuary around? Maybe other, hidden pro-lgbt persons are nearby (if You are afraid, they probably are afraid too, and hidden)?

    Much HUGSIE from similar country not so far \o/

    • UnaOPEnglish
      9·
      1 day ago

      Thanks, hug I found online another trans girl from same country and we talk to each other. Also I was on boo dating app and found awesome queer friends

  • dandelion@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    181·
    2 days ago

    what country? I’ve heard there is an organization called the rainbow railroad that helps people escape certain places

    • UnaOPEnglish
      22·
      2 days ago

      From Croatia, and while laws are not necessarily transphobic (I think I can still transition) society still is especially in smaller towns

      • dandelion@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
        20·
        2 days ago

        I feel you, I live in the South in the U.S. in one of the most transphobic states. I was terrified to come out, but it ended up going much better than I expected. For the most part people just didn’t care, and the worst I got were stares usually from older or hyper-masculine men.

        EDIT: this made me think that a lot of that fear was oversized, more in my head than reality. Transphobic violence is real, but is mostly targeted against poor trans women of color.

        • TotallynotJessica@lemmy.blahaj.zoneMEnglish
          1·
          8 hours ago

          America is kinda weird like that where being a “freak” is almost seen as cool by everyone, but there’s still mad bigotry. i really don’t know how else to explain it, but there’s a live and let live attitude where people just want everyone to leave each other the fuck alone

        • Syl@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
          181·
          2 days ago

          poor trans women of color

          The more of these words apply to you, the worse it is:

          1. poor
          2. trans
          3. woman
          4. of color
          • dandelion@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
            10·
            2 days ago

            it really do be bad - though obviously violence exists against all LGBT+ identities, by the numbers it hits trans women of color the hardest, and these women are more likely to be sex workers, more likely to contract HIV, and more likely to be victims of crime. Women in general are at greater risk of being a victim of violent crime.

        • UnaOPEnglish
          11·
          1 day ago

          I did, ever since I was child I always wanted to go somewhere where no one knows me and live life as a woman, but right now I can’t go because I go to university and plan to finish it and maybe find job in food industry somewhere outside.

    • UnaOPEnglish
      11·
      2 days ago

      🩷🫂🫂 I love you

    • UnaOPEnglish
      11·
      2 days ago

      Hugg! 🫂🫂 I love hugs and I love platonic friendships hugs are best 🫂🫂