I think I understand. I remember quite a bit about my childhood. Though, I don’t think about it much. Most of what I recall on the regular is negative. I didn’t have a particularly bad childhood, I think it’s just my C-PTSD and OCD that only lets me revisit the bad ones. If I try to, I can remember a few good ones from time to time.

It’s funny, I remembered one just a few hours ago while watching a movie. It’s a scene in Jacob’s Ladder that helped me remember. The main character goes to tuck his son in to bed and he didn’t want his dad to leave. That made me remember a similar moment with my dad. I asked if he’d check on me in half an hour. I said something to the effect of “How about I come check on you in an hour and a half” to which I agreed. I haven’t thought about it in years. It was nice to remember something pleasant. Me and my dad are pretty adversarial now. I wish we weren’t.

I have lots of memories playing outside with my mom, dad, and siblings. We went to the beach, we went camping, we went to the movies. I think we all used to be happier. It’s hard for me to give specific examples. I don’t remember most of my memories clearly enough.

Memories are very emotional like you said. I enjoyed reading yours. Thank you for sharing.