Mine are more like, “How much longer do I need to keep doing this?” as I get up and get ready for the day.
I’ve been working at this for 6 years after going through rehab. I’ve been clean since, but decided to deal with the depression using the tools they gave me instead of using medication.
I don’t want to die, but even after changing careers and becoming “my own boss,” (you’re never your own boss) I still have no enthusiasm for living.
So I dunno if it’s normal, but you’re not alone.
Im not a professional, but from what I understand there’s like stages: ideation, planning, preparation, and attempt. or it’s something like that. What you’re describing sounds like ideation to me, which is pretty common in depressed people.
I’ve been at that point where you’re just waiting for the right time or a good enough reason. I think asking yourself that is a good reflective moment and an indicator that it’s time to either seek help or look to change something up in your life if getting help isn’t a viable option.
Normal: yes, surprisingly common. Healthy: No, absolutely not.
No.
Call of the void. “Hey what would happen if I drove off of this cliff?..drank this obviously poisonous chemical? Etc”. We all get them. It’s just the brain and mind wandering
planning or preparing in thorough detail is NOT NORMAL and I implore you to seek a therapist
Edit: the fact these are recurring is concerning to me as call of the void is usually a random or infrequent basis that is rare. The link I provided says that you should seek help if they are persistent…which in your case they are
I just got my period so it was most likely due to PMS/PMDD
I’m not planning or preparing
Oh thank goodness …my SO sometimes goes a little crazy before her cycle too
As someone who has and had been dealing with similar, the answer is no, pal.
Do you have access to some kind of mental health professional, either through work or in general? Because now’s the time to talk to them. It’s not going to be easy, and you’re going to have to discuss what’s making you feel like this, but it’s way more worthwhile than toughing it out and not talking, because speaking from experience, that sure as hell doesn’t work.
Get yourself booked in to see someone asap
I might not be able to help much but I’m chronically online so can chat, but I’m no professional, just another person who should also see one.
So TALK TO A THERAPIST.
But yes. Suicidal thoughts are pretty normal. Suicidal plans are not.
So quick bubbling thoughts of “God I wanna die. Fuck this. Fuck everything. Fuck everyone. Can I just fucking die already?” Pretty normal. Uncomfortable, but just about all humans have thoughts like this when stressy/depressy hits hard.
Thoughts like “how many amps would it take to stop my heart, and is that wall socket enough? Do forks conduct enough electricity…?” NOT NORMAL.
Don’t let this enormous sea of gray between these two amorphous examples guide you. TALK TO A THERAPIST.
Dunno why anyone downvoted you, you’re entirely correct. Asking randos on the internet is no substitute for mental/medical issues. OP needs to talk to a/some professionals, not Derrick the keyboard warrior.
Probably because I said suicidal thoughts are normal and people don’t like that uncomfortable fact.
Or downvoting it because on its surface that statement could be dangerous. But those people somehow missed the capslock text, explanation, etc. 🤷♂️
You can lead a horse to water. Etc, etc.
@IntrovertTurtle@lemmy.zip @foggy@lemmy.world @hayyy@thelemmy.club @mentalhealth@lemmy.world
I’m not among the downvoters, I can’t really say for those who downvoted you both, but maybe it has to do with your both “talk to therapist” while knowing absolutely nothing about the OPs background, whether they could financially afford a therapist (therapy is often a paid service) or the meds prescribed (something we’re required to purchase), whether they did “talk to a therapist” before talking to “randos on the internet”? You ppl didn’t even consider the slightest possibility that the OP were, deep inside, trying to connect with someone, trying to find a _like-minded_ friend?
To be fair, OP didn’t describe their background, didn’t detail further… But this speaks volumes as someone trying to connect with someone while being selective about what they could say publicly (even when behind a pseudonym).
When someone posts something like “hey ppl, is it normal to be depressive?” without describing why, it’s very likely that the person is hoping someone to come and ask “hey, why are those thoughts making it to your mind?” or even a mere “hi, I saw your post, uh, you can talk to me if you want”. Some may label this behavior “attention-seeking”, but isn’t this a living being (human and whatnot) thing to do, trying to find and connect with beings alike?
But instead of trying to connect back, it’s outsourced to “therapist”, regardless of conditions financial, even societal… do you know there are people who, depending on their country, can’t really simple “walk into a therapist room” due to their sexual orientation, ethnicity, religion, characteristics upon which they would be persecuted and/or harassed if they tried to seek someone IRL?
Using my own personal anecdote: I lost count of how many “professionals” I sought, I got even deeper thoughts than those described by the op. I did “seek help” since my childhood… Still NONE solved my “problem”, whatever my “problem” is. Partly because my “problem” involves non-mundane matters, and a psychiatrist, upon hearing how I’m a devotee of Lilith, pushes me the label of “Schizotypal” because the society around me (Brazilian) is overly christian (but if, instead of mentioning “Lilith” or “Lucifer”, I were to mention “Our Lady of Aparecida” or “Jesus Christ”, then it’d be suddenly “normal”). Luckily, I’m not violently persecuted in Brazil (yet) for being an demonolater, but there are precedents.
In the end, “asking strangers from a social media instead of therapists” may be an attempt to connect (hopefully safely) to like-minded people who could, hopefully, understand better in a potential friendship than a therapist (who’s not a friend, but a doctor doing a job) could in mere 2 hours per week.
Sorry if I’m being rude, but it’s just that whenever I see the “seek a therapist” or “call this number” advises, I can’t help but notice how hollow and totally unaware of a person’s situation those are.
Yes 💜
