To be succinct and private… My incubator worked me for weeks to build rapport and trust with me in my younger days, to get me to tell her a something that she would ultimately, and immediately use and weaponize against me and others.

This wasnt the first time I tried to have a relationship with her, but it did finally open my eyes and become the last. In the many many decades since, I’ve not so much as acknowledge her existence when crossing paths.

  • GreatWhiteBuffalo41@slrpnk.netEnglish
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    If I wasn’t a good as her, I needed to do better, try harder, stop being lazy etc. If I was better than her at something she would pick out the most miniscule flaw she could come up with and give it to me as a back handed complement then slowly work it into random conversations until it became my insecurity.

    The thing that sticks with me the most though, she had me absolutely convinced I was far too fat to wear shorts in public, let alone a bikini. Finally was convinced by my group of friends that I was in fact, normally sized and literally handed one and told to wear it.

    I was not expecting to see my Mom between getting dressed and going to the pool. She asked me if I was really going out like that and how I was going to handle everyone making fun of me then highly suggested I go change into my 1 piece. Said she wasn’t going to feel bad for me when I came back crying

    That broke me. Of course I believed her. She was my Mom she just wanted what was best for me right? I can still see the look on my friend’s face when I came back in the room to change and she said “you know that’s not true right? There’s nothing wrong with you. This is about her.”

    Took me years and years to realize she was very wrong. I didn’t let anyone take pictures of me for awhile after that but I saw some recently of 3 years later when I had “gained some weight.” Holy fuck, there is zero chance in hell I was fat.

    Anyways, she had a horrible, long {9 years), and painful death and probably got abused pretty bad in the nursing home. Good riddance to that piece of shit. Because I got off easy with just emotional and mental trauma. What she did to my siblings was significantly worse.